Spring update

 It has been a while since I posted on here, and thought I should do an update. Things on the same-sex attraction front are still going well. I still find other guys attractive and mainly struggle with lust occasionally, but the temptation to hook up is rarely there and when it is, it is very minimum. It has been a long time since I have even been tempted to go on one of the many hook up sites or apps that I used to use.... and I am thankful for that,

 Pornography is still a battle, but not as much as it used to be; so I am hoping it is losing its grip on me also. My porn addiction is different from most guys. I have watched a lot of videos over the years and looked at pictures, but my main struggle and what I have used to get off on for years has been gay erotic stories. Maybe it is because I have always been a big reader, but therein lies my biggest struggle right now.

  My relationship with God has been going very well. I had a hospital stay in early March. I had been really sick, and passed out at work at the hospital I work at. They diagnosed me with bronchitis, pulmonary embolism, and diabetes type 2. Thankfully I don't need shots, but am on 1000 mg of a pill for the diabetes and am on blood thinners for 6 months for the blood clots. The whole experience has really taught me to trust God, and as I have changed my eating habits; I have been losing weight - 21 pounds so far.

  I have read a couple of really good books I may post about later, but for anyone stopping by my blog, I am still alive and fighting the fight.