Monday, July 7, 2014

July stuff

 
It has been a while since I blogged on here, so I thought I should do a quick post in case anyone is watching my blog and wondering how things are going. Things are so-so. Depression has been pretty bad lately, and there are a few reasons it has gotten worse. I'm not sure what to do about it. I got tired of trying more and more expensive pills that didn't work the last time it was bad. It isn't as bad as it was before, as it isn't interfering as much with my reading and general living.

  One problem I have is worry. I worry a lot about the future. And I do mean a lot. It could be a lack of trusting God, but I do believe it is more of a lack of faith and trust in myself. I still don't believe I can support myself and make it through life, and it terrifies me to think about it. I hate living with my parents, but I am afraid to try it on my own, not that I am financially ready for that yet anyway.

  To add to everything, a freak storm came through my town a few weeks ago and did a lot of damage....... including a tree on the house and several appliances getting fried, so life has been hectic here.

   Temptation wise, things haven't been too bad. I have seen my share of shirtless guys and did look, but the temptation to hook up has been very low, and that is a big thing for me. Some days I feel like giving up, and feel I am failing God more than not, but I am still plugging along. Slowly, but plugging along.