May stuff

   I have seriously neglected this blog so far this year, and need to remedy that. Things are still going fairly well in my life. I have lost track of how long it has been since I hooked up, but it has got to be around 2 years now. I am still rarely tempted to do so, and the temptation isn't very severe when it does come. Pornography is a bigger battle right now, but it isn't as tough as it used to be. I still feel my relationship with God is far from what it needs to be, yet I am amazed at how far He has brought me. Life isn't perfect, but it is good.

 Regarding my health: I had mentioned in my last blog post about it..... I am still on blood thinners and will be through September, but the blood clots should be gone. I have lost 26 pounds, and hope to lose about 30 more to get down where I should be. I have gotten my sugar low enough that last week the doctor took me off of the pills I was taking for that, something that made my day.

  I have been pretty discouraged and depressed lately, but that is lessening. I think I was letting the doctor and hospital bills, the diabetes, and all that stuff get to me. Thankfully, I seem to be coming out of that.

  The last two years I have gone to the Hope for Wholeness Conference, and got a lot of help and encouragement from it. This year, I made the tough decision to go with my family on vacation to the ocean. I couldn't do both, and I don't know how many more years my parents will be able to make the trip..... plus my nieces wanted me to go badly; so I will be heading for the ocean for a whole week on Saturday, June 4.

  I had a couple of cool things happen recently. I work in a large hospital, and received special recognition for the good job I do. Then I got a 48 cent raise on my last paycheck. It is the little things that make life better.

 I have been dealing with loneliness a lot lately. I enjoy solitude, eating out alone, shopping alone.... but I often find myself wishing I had someone to do that stuff with occasionally; but I don't. Being a single guy in your 40's who has no interest in sports, hunting, fishing, etc, is tough..... but such is life.

  Until next time......