Tempting times

 

This week has been a rough week, temptation-wise. I have been tempted more than usual to give into porn, and was even tempted to seek out sex, which I haven't really been tempted to do for a while.

  In addition, I had a couple of things happen that hurt, and felt let down by some people, so I was really leaning toward giving into porn. Yesterday and today were really bad, and I had decided to do it next chance I got, which would most likely be tonight. I'd even planned on buying something I'll call a "prop" when I was out shopping at town today.

  When I logged onto Facebook this morning, a friend of mine from church started chatting with me. He is about 13-14 years younger than me, but seems to like me, and he knows about my struggles and is someone I have discussed them with a bit. I asked him a couple of weeks ago if he would ask me every once in awhile how I am doing, as it is so easy to slip back into stuff and no one knows. He said he'd be happy to, and before he logged off of chatting with me this morning, he asked how I was doing with my soul and eyes. I told him temptation had been strong, and he said some helpful things.

  I left later and was in Walmart, still struggling whether to give into porn today or not, when I got a text message from my pastor. He said he hoped I was keeping encouraged and that he was praying for me. I replied and thanked him and told him it had been a rough week with temptation. The texting with him, and the chatting with my friend from church combined to remind me I didn't want to give in, so I came home with a new resolve to not give in.